Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Dear Kam,

This is a letter that was read during Kameron's funeral services:

My dear, sweet Kameron,

It’s hard to know what to say that you don’t already know. But, I want you to know how much you mean to me. You are the best person to come into my life and you have changed the person I am and the type of person I will become. You have taught me so many things that I will never forget. And I am so grateful for the gift you have left behind for me, our sweet little boy, Kason. He is such a joy and reminds me so much of you. He has so much of you in him, in his personality, his looks, his attitude and especially his stubbornness! Thank you for Kason and thank you for everything that you taught him and the time you spent with him. You are an amazing dad and I know you will watch over Kason and help him grow up strong.

When I think back to our dating days, I remember having so much fun with you. There wasn’t a day that went by that I wasn’t excited to see you and spend all my extra time with you. I was so excited when I realized that I loved you and wanted to spend the rest of eternity with you and I was even more thrilled when you said you felt the same way. On our wedding day, as we knelt across the alter from each other, and we began our new life together, we had no idea what was in store for us but, it didn’t matter because we were in love and we were to be together for eternity. I remember thinking that with you by my side we could make it through anything.

Kameron, I am so grateful for the wonderful 5 years we were able to share together, here on earth. I have so many memories with you that I will never forget. You have made such a difference in my life and I have grown so much in the past 5 years because of what you have taught me and because of your example. You are such strong priesthood holder and you have such a solid testimony of the gospel.

I think that is why our Heavenly Father needs you home with Him. You will be such a strong instrument in heaven as you teach the gospel there. Your love and compassion for others will help you as you teach. You are an elite member of Heavenly Father’s army now and you are preparing the way for me and Kason so that we can all be reunited again.

It has been so hard to live my life without you next to me and it is hard to think about my future. But, I KNOW that you are happy and healthy. I know that your body is whole and that your mind is sharp. All the things that were promised to you have been fulfilled. I am scared for my life without you but, I cannot WAIT for our eternity together. We have so much life left to live together and I can’t wait to raise our children together and serve missions together. I know that there is so much left for us to do together. That is why I am so grateful we were sealed for time and all eternity. Your leaving this mortal life is not the end of our life together. This time that I have left on the earth is only a small moment in our eternity.

Kason and I will be okay. He will always know what an amazing father he has. I have so many wonderful stories to tell him about you. I know that you won’t ever leave us and you will always be by our sides helping us through this life. I love you so very much and miss you more than words could ever explain but, I am happy for you and where you are. You are in a much better place and I find myself jealous at times that you have been freed from this mortal life. See you in a little while my sweet husband.

With much love,
Your Eternal Companion, Jami

13 comments:

Jeremiah and Heidi said...

These are sweet words Jami. I know he cannot wait to spend his eternity with you to. Stay strong your words are inspiring to me.

burkfamily1 said...

Still praying for strength and comfort for you. Thanks for sharing that sweet letter. God be with you.

Ashley said...

That's beautiful Jami.

Corri said...

I really enjoyed the funeral (as much as anyone can enjoy a funeral). Everything was beautiful and I'm sure that Kameron was sitting next to you celebrating his life with you.

Whitney said...

Jami, I am constantly thinking about you and praying for you. Thanks for sharing on your blog. You are strengthening me by your faith. :)

J2AK said...

Thank for sharing your sweet letter. You are a strong and special person. I'm also so glad that you and Kameron were sealed for all time and eternity. What a blessing! I know you'll be together again! You are still in our thoughts and prayers. We wish you, and Kason the very best. Take care. :)

Katy and Landon said...

That was so beautiful. I marvel at how you are able to compose yourself and write things like this. It's so hard for all of us to remember how short this earth life really is - it's just a blip in our eternal life, but it can bog us down when we have something tough to go through. Thanks for your perspective and for reminding us all that this life isn't everything..we have so much good and so much more waiting for us when it is our time.

HollySteffen said...

i know it is hard but thank you for sharing so the people that couldn't be there could read it.

i love you. you are so strong and brave.

Lara said...

Thank you for sharing that, it is so sweet. Your faith is absolutely amazing and admirable.

Tamara said...

You truly are an amazing woman, and we indeed are SO blessed to know that life goes on after the grave, and we have the opportunity to be reuinted again! How fortunate we are, especially in such tough circumstances like you have right now. I know Kameron is watching over you every moment of the day, and that he is working hard in your behalf on the other side. I'm sure he's going through a tough time being without such an incredible woman by his side, and without his adorable "mini mi", Kason. Thanks so much for sharing your letter...it is so well put together! I know Kason will appreaciate these words and your wonderful stories as he gets older. Still praying for you, for strength, patience, and comfort.

Tyler and Brianna Hatch said...

It was so good to see you this last week. Your letter was one of the more touching parts of the funeral and it stuck out to me how faithful you have been through all of this. You have such an amazing talent in writing, you have no idea how inspiritional your words have been to so many other people. Never stop writing, your words are so beautiful and I know that Kameron enjoyed every bit of the funeral services as well as your sweet sweet letter. Hope you are continuing to do a little better each day. Whenever you come to thatcher you can always count on us for anything.

Kara, Garrick, Rylee and Jadyn said...

Oh Jami, thanks for sharing this letter (again). You really are an inspired writer. When times get tuff, take the time to go back over some of the posts you've written and remind yourself of all the blessings the Lord has given you. He will continue to bless you and comfort you. I love you Jami!

Sailing Past Maturity Straight into Senility said...

Thanks for sharing, Jami. I am certain you are already doing this, but print these out and make certain Kason will have a record/book of these entries as you are solidering on.

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