Just a quick update! I am going to live. That's such a 'matter of fact' statement but when you've gone through the stuff I have...it holds meaning! I am now at a lower medication dose on the steriod Prednisone. I also see my docs only every three months. It was every week and my Rhuemetologist was in Tucson. I have finally steadied out in weight and am getting stronger day by day. In the last 6 weeks i have maybe had only two flare ups(lupus attacks)so that is good! It is so nice to have a bit of normality in my life now. There was a point during this experience that I couldn't even pick up Kason and now all i do is play with him all day long! So yeah I am living again! I am ready to move forward..I am job searching so if anyone knows anything let us know. Thanks to all for the prayers, love, and support! I really made a difference! It guess service is the best medicine you can take!!!!